My plan is to spend the next few months getting better. Work on making my body stronger and smarter. Through tough work, and pushing myself like I've never even thought, or dreamed, of. Spending more time reflecting on my past. Where I've come from and where I want to be.
I know all too well that there is no telling what the future has in store. The only thing we know is what happened, and what's happening right now. We have no idea what will happen in the next second of our lives. It's nice to have a layout of what you want to happen. If something arises in front of you don't attack it. Just deal with it the best you can. Remember, it's not shameful to ask for help. Okay, I'll get to the point and not rant anymore...that's the plan anyway.
We already know the first step. I've got to get myself better. My next step is to return to Osu Okc and finish what I started. Then to SWOKC to obtain my degree in Music Therapy.
I don't want to go into Music Therapy because I love playing all kinds of instruments, or music. It's because of my undying dream to help people who are struggling. People who have lost what they always had. Show them there's light in the darkness. I'm not looking to teach them how to play music. I'm hoping to let them know that learning how music can help them with their long term goal of getting better. Being a part of their journey. I'm not looking to stand on a mountain and scream "look at what I've done." I know I can't make them better, that's mainly up to them and what they want.
Going to a rehabilitation place opened me up to a world of what really happens to people and how they're affected. I'm not saying I'm a professional. I've just seen, and have experienced, the ups and downs of traumatic brain injuries. Stuff you're just do and don't have to even think about. I've entered a world where I've got to concentrate on everything I do. It's far from a cry of pity. I'm here and that's all there is to it. I can only move on.
I'm well aware that me surviving what I survived is a miracle. I've met a countless amount of amazing people through my journey. Some I've forgotten the names of, and some I'll remember for as long as I can.
What I wish for the world is non judgement. We can't control what people did. We can't control anything. We try our hardest to keep things from happening. Some things are just inevitable. You cause more harm trying to hold someone back. Don't be afraid of them experiencing things. I'm not telling you what to do. I'm just explaining my opinion. As mean as it might seem. The world isn't out to get you, nor is life. Just try your hardest to keep a smile on your face and your chin held up.
